nu year is comin~~

aww few more days left 2 reach 2010
anyway i did nthin much in 2009
jus some dissapoinment in quarter bk, aww....

felt so so unhappy recently, bcos i rmb someone
someone tat broke my heart, someone who hurt me sorrow...
mayb tats bcos of d christmas eve tat we'v promise
nw oni i realise tat promise doesn't mean anything
really!
someone has promise tat willin 2 spend d nite at genting wit me
but nthin doing nw, y? seriusly i cnt answer tat...

on d 25noon, i went to Stephanie's cementary
2geter with d rm250 worth bear bear n a cd i burn myself
i kept something meaninful in tat cd
bt it's just useless nw...
i'v spend hours at thr, jus 2 express myself 2 her
it's been a long time since i "talk" to her
durin our "conversation" d othr Steph msg me, suddently.
i was like: damn, y u here?
well, be4 i leave, i left d bear bear n cd beside her hopin she will like it.
我真的不知道还可以把他们给谁
唯有把他们留在那
sorry?
有些事真的可以一句sorry就可以了吗？
看见他们的笑容就好像听见她对我的讥笑
我对她的真心被讥笑
她的道歉就像在污辱我！！


我真得很痛苦
每一晚我都会想她我已经尽力不去想她了
如果可以的话我好想像'哈利波特'里一样
把我这两年的记忆抽出来并把它封印起来
我很努力不去想她,但最近她又在我脑海中出现了
每次想起她我都会哭,会很难过
看来现在的我就像'溏心风暴'里的常在心一样,对管家仔报告个不及格
非常不及格！！
我以后不要那么傻了
随便对人家做承诺是会带来伤害的

希望我不要那么傻了, 真的不要那么傻了
希望明年的我会更好...