nu year is comin~~

aww few more days left 2 reach 2010
anyway i did nthin much in 2009
jus some dissapoinment in quarter bk, aww....

felt so so unhappy recently, bcos i rmb someone
someone tat broke my heart, someone who hurt me sorrow...
mayb tats bcos of d christmas eve tat we'v promise
nw oni i realise tat promise doesn't mean anything
really!
someone has promise tat willin 2 spend d nite at genting wit me
but nthin doing nw, y? seriusly i cnt answer tat...

on d 25noon, i went to Stephanie's cementary
2geter with d rm250 worth bear bear n a cd i burn myself
i kept something meaninful in tat cd
bt it's just useless nw...
i'v spend hours at thr, jus 2 express myself 2 her
it's been a long time since i "talk" to her
durin our "conversation" d othr Steph msg me, suddently.
i was like: damn, y u here?
well, be4 i leave, i left d bear bear n cd beside her hopin she will like it.
我真的不知道还可以把他们给谁
唯有把他们留在那
sorry?
有些事真的可以一句sorry就可以了吗？
看见他们的笑容就好像听见她对我的讥笑
我对她的真心被讥笑
她的道歉就像在污辱我！！


我真得很痛苦
每一晚我都会想她我已经尽力不去想她了
如果可以的话我好想像'哈利波特'里一样
把我这两年的记忆抽出来并把它封印起来
我很努力不去想她,但最近她又在我脑海中出现了
每次想起她我都会哭,会很难过
看来现在的我就像'溏心风暴'里的常在心一样,对管家仔报告个不及格
非常不及格！！
我以后不要那么傻了
随便对人家做承诺是会带来伤害的

希望我不要那么傻了, 真的不要那么傻了
希望明年的我会更好...

fEELing SUCKs!!

Damn....
fellin moody nw, jus saw my frens' blog
she celebratin her bf bday, looik sweet
hw am i gonna tolerate these?
dunno... really dunno...
think tat i'm kinda lost n disappoint nw
told her tat i'm waitin fr her, bt am i doing tat nw?
honestly i dunno...
i'v done a christmas present fr her, bt i cnt pass it to her
no idea hw 2 mk it, my heart tellin me tat i'm hurtin myself..
bt d othr way, i'm happy, felt happy fr her 2 found such a gud bf..
he is... really a lucky guy.. i hav 2 say tat
christmas gonna reach, my wish is...
evyone tat i know gonna b alrite in nxt year,
my parents, relative, frens, n those i luv
n specially her!
well, i gt nthin more 2 tell..
actually hav, bt i'm keepin it 2 myself

a-man...

PC Fair~~

Quite a buzy one fr tis time
ppl r talkin bout eco-crisis here n thr bt still ppl do come spendin here..

Gt 2 know many new friends here tis time
foolin around, quite a funky one haha XD!!

Anyway, heres a few of them, chau!!

难过的下半年...

这个月真忙累死我了
还好, 除了有高酬劳之外
忙
也可以让我忘记一些伤心事
忘记一个人
忘记一个伤得我很深的人...
最近开始学日语, 学到明年六月就可以赶过去了
虽然还不肯定, 但学学无妨
反正是对方提供的, 免费! 哈哈!!
在PC fair的时候做的大家忙的不可开交, 但也很开心
也有缘的认识了一班新朋友
有帅哥, 当然少不了美女
除了这PC fair之外, 也接了其它的工作
看来明年的新年不用愁了 =)
该也足够跟她去旅行吧?
啊!!对了...她叫美娜, 是个比之前的那只好很多的女孩
是个很特别的女生
希望, 她可以帮我疗好之前的痛吧....

说到痛, 脚伤也还没好呢!
幸好比赛已完毕了
唉...
连半决赛也进不了, 真失败!!
但我已经尽力了
谢谢队友对我有信心, 让我抱伤上阵
该无遗憾了吧..
以后的, 等脚伤好了再说吧.

快要圣诞节了!

原本这次是跟一个人一起渡过的..
但既然她做了这决定, 我也希望她是对的
看见她两的照片, 从她们的眼神里看到了我的不可能...
朋友说:是你的就是你的, 不是你的不能抢!!
这道理我明白,但我还年轻
我还想努力一下!!
现在正在假期了, 她该回来了吧?
那有缘的话, 再见吧!!
还有..

宝贝
圣诞节快乐